so my dad gets home and he reminds me what a piece of shit i am. and why you ask o0o because i didn't call him this morning. letter to my father: you know why i don't call you dad because the only thing that is fatherly about you is the title father. you don't know how to be one. you are an asshole you buy into the whole shit of choosing sides with mom. wow and the thing is i adore you dad ever since i was little i've had problems with mom but not you, you were my hero you could do no wrong but you let mom influence you and whenever she was mad at me and told you to handle me you did you didn't stop think that maybe i was right or maybe you shouldn't interfere no you handled me. there is nothing more degrading than when a man hits a women and you know that because you enver hit mom never but with me you don't care you hit me and get so angry and you don't even know what the problem is. and then the weekend of my birthday i get the wonderful speech on how i will never learn unless i get hit and you would never do anything because you would understand because i don't know when to stop arguing and that my brother talks a lot of shit and he wouldn't do anything either. you think i don't know that nobody in this family would do anythign for me i am well aware of what my place is in this family the only one that gave an anything is abuelo and he died and you know what he didn't want anythign to do with this family because he knew it he knew that his daughter only cared about her image and that she was a snob adn that you are an asshole and that luis didn't love him and not being loved is terrible i hope it hurts you that i don't love you anymore that i can't because it hurts even more that i love you at least with mom i don't care becuase i stopped loving her years ago but you foole dme into thinking that you would be a dad and you would care about me but you don't and you never will becuase i am not the person you want me to be but you know what i am the person i want to be and the only time i am this ugly is with the family and as soon as i no longer have to depend on you two financially and i can move on i will becasue i never want to be this ugly and i never want to be reminded of my past. and really i don't know how i ever thought you could be a good father when you married a woman has racist biggot uneducated and snobby as mom she goes around thinking she is better than everyone else and makes stupid comments on how she wishes she had a slave you and i both know she sounds like an idiot and how she won't vote for obama not because she doens't agree with him but because he is black although she does agree with his politics and she dind't want hillary becasue she is a woman and women are not good enough to be president and how she owuld rather be a house wife becuase she does think that women should be in the kitchen making food for their husbands but we dont' live in the 50's anymore do we and you don't say anythign because that makes you feel like you're in control like you're the man in the house but really what kind of man does that make you. you hit your daughter and you don't hit your wife because then she will stop bieng your wife as you told me but not me because no matter what i will always be your daughter no matter what you do to me so you know what save it dad i dont' care what you tell me and you know what maybe now i do love you but there will be a time when i don't and eventually i'll leave and you will never see me again unless you're in your death bed then i will go visit you and right before you die i'll let you know how well i am doing with out you and how happy i am and how this all happened becasue of me an dyou had nothing to do with it because you were to busy being in control of the house to ever care what was going on in my life becuase you are right dad all that matters is school not my life not how i feel or who breaks my heart or who has my heart or what i like to do or what my dreams are jsut school and thats it because you kjnow how us ppol are one dimensional only one thing matters we are not complicated biengs at all right for someone who says they are so smart you do sound like an idiot when you say that because welcome to the real world dad i am not a one dimensional fictional characters i have more than one thing going on in my life love laura the person who is your daughter forever you're right dad but that doesn't mean i have to love you or care and i won't and i will learn to not let you affect me you will not break me anymore